Wherever i go, thats where i am

Ahhhh the much awaited Bali blog. I do appreciate your patience with me ~ im in paradise after all. Bali is amazing, I’ve been here almost a week and it’s such an incredible place. I have been dancing, playing, swimming & finding so much joy. I visited temples, waterfalls, rice fields, a coffee farm. I’ve been going to ecstatic dance & yoga. I’ve been enjoying massage Almost daily. Amidst all of this ~a deep and potent healing journey. That Scorpio full moon really did me in, anyone else??  Boy oh boy did the shadow really reveal itself deeply this time around. Wherever i go, thats where i am. The phrase of this journey.

I’m so curious whats been coming up for everyone. For me it’s this: throughout my life in many circumstances i was deeply shamed for my rage, anger, the power i hold. By others and myself. This was largely due to not having a positive outlet for it. However what i notice as a common theme for many is that we are not taught how to process and deal with the voltage we hold. & thus it comes out in weird ways that often times can be harmful. Every single one of our emotions is necessary & the repression of any of them lead to shadow aspects of the self. Until we can face these head on they will plague us in subtle (or not so subtle) ways. We will inadvertently project them onto others or watch them echo throughout our lives. Sometimes both.

The truth about power & anger is it longs deeply to be seen and accepted. We as humans long to be loved for the full spectrum of who we are. This begins as an inside job. Being willing to sit with the full spectrum of ourselves without judgement of what it means. With the presence of love and acceptance. With the allowance of the expression of it fully and completely.

Last night at ecstatic dance i gave myself permission to be in my power and anger. I stopped caring about what it looked like or sounded like and simply just existed with what my body needed. I felt so alive. Crystalline clear.

Before i left i birthed this integrative session/class “if you can feel it you can heal it.” This felt like an extension of that. I am beyond grateful.

The synchronicities I’ve experienced since being here could be a whole novel in itself. I know i will return to this sacred land.

As i write this it is may 17 at 11 am. I am on the last day of my 20’s. Tomorrow i will be THIRTY years old. The outpouring of tears of gratitude is present. What an incredibly beautiful life this is. I am beyond grateful. More to come beauty beings. Many blessings.🪽

29 year old Maggie McGee 🌹